Thursday, December 04, 2008 @12:02 AM
Reading my blog now makes me realise a few things:
1. I've grown up
2. Time flies
3. I stopped blogging in June 2006
4. I enjoy reading past entries
5. I want to continue blogging
6. I'm not sure if I can keep it up
7. I don't know what makes me want to blog again.
Maybe it's an outlet for frustration. Its someone you can talk to when you have no one to talk to.
Anyway.
I think lately I've been taking for granted things that God has given me.
You know how when you dont have something, you want it very much?
but once you have it, it becomes normal?
and you forget that it was once something you hoped for.
I think me getting into medicine is something like that.
I pray that God will continue to remind me why I'm studying this, and where the ultimate goal is.
I was trying to find an entry which listed all the criteria for the perfect guy, but i think i missed it, haha.
I think i've become more emotional. Since last time.
And I still wish life stopped at sec 3. That was (or is?) really the best year of my life so far.
J1 is comparable, but not as carefree.
Anyway CA is on 15 dec. And I think reading Guyton isnt going to do me much good, cos I honestly cannto absorb much content. I decided that my plan shall be to read Guyton briefly and then focus on the lecture notes.
CA1 was rather terrible, although i think i did okay, but everyone else who did better than me say that they did terribly (and they honestly really think so) so I cant possibly say that i did okay when im far worse off than them, can i?
I even need do go for the ethics thing which only people who fail ethics need to go. Can you believe it. I can actually fail ethics. Its ridiculous. Im not ethical enough for you? or is it maybe I didnt have enough key points to pass the stupid paper.
I wish I could study hard. But there are so many things so many other things other than school that i would love to pursue but i know that time is going to be limited. My whole life is going to be dedicated to this profession and then what. It has got to be my passion. But can't I have multiple interests? I wanna dance I wanna learn gymnastics I wanna learn the bass guitar.
I wanna play in a band.
This reminds me of the hall saga. I applied again for hall for semester 2 and i'm just gonna let God handle it. If it is His will, then so be it.
I shall try my very best to continue blogging regularly. It really is good for the soul.